3:35 PM
Did you know that I'm jealous on you sometimes
Why huh? Is because there's always alot about friends around you
Cant you feel it? I'm really happy!
All is just because of you
You remind me on someone
Someone i love but left me behind
You know? Last night when we're together?
I felt,i felt just like she came back to me again
But i'm so afraid
As time goes by, the picture in my mind will get blur
And i'm just so afraid that one day i will forget everything
For me, she was like a angel
She has a cute beautiful long hair
And her eyes always shine like a crystal and everytime when she smile,
Look like the whole world was fulfil with fulling of roses.
You know? Even now i still couldnt believe it
I mean i just don't know why she left me like this
I wish she never leave me and always stay by myside
I miss her so much! so much! I just don't know why she left me
Don't know why.
(Hokkien version)
Duo ko tai
Cha ku zai
Shiu shiu ze oun lai
Ling ling wa bo ai
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2:47 AM
It's just some uneasy feeling that i'm unable to get rid of it.
That feeling have been surrounding me for quite a long time.
The feeling that i am unable to put in words. I think its time!
Its going to be november and that means Holiday is coming soon.
Times flies =(
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8:38 AM
School life, ive got to saym is getting a little mundane.
Put aside the studying, the books, the teachers, the students and you will get
urself a life without a sense of direction.
I mean, im basically a little..lost. lolx
I'm clear of what i should do, but yet im unclear of what has to be done.
I'm clear of the goal that im suppose to reach, but yet the process of how im gonna get there is still so vague.
And even so, how chould i be so sure that the goal that i'm aiming for, is the goal that i'm suppose to be looking towards?
My family... somehow i just don't feel at home anymore. Going home is almost
the same as going to school. Everything all planned and restricted. Everything all quiet, all silent, all...dead.
The people behind has a home much alive than mine currently. I'm the onli one at home with only a few lights on, while people behind have each other's company.
It just gets all nostalgic today.
hahah... How i wish i could turn back time.
I guess there is just no point in regretting and moaning over what's lost huh.
LOL.
Don't really know why im feeling so down right now.
Maybe i'm just expressing what has been accumulated in my heart for the past
few months, maybe i'm just bored and typing this post out of self-entertainment purposes, or maybe its just.. the gloony weather LOL.
And after today, I find that ive no interested in being rich. Being rich makes life even more boring , even more lifeless. I mean yea, you can get almost anything in this world, anything materialistic. But i guess it's all pointless when you have no one to share it with.
(Ok now that sentence just brought me to the conclusion that im feeling pretty lonely right now.Lol. tt explains my post.)
It's pointless getting rich when it doesnt bring life into your life but rather brings
you deeper and closer to being dead.
Ok enuff of my random-ness =D
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7:44 AM
Hello, i have not blogged for a rly long time.
I kinda missed it. :D
So, th week's events. I can't rly rmb what i did during th week though.
Meeting Caysin, and two of her frenz.. th usuals in th morning for breakfast at Macs.
Have not done tht in ages. (:
Stayed home tday like a good boy! :D :D :D
&i packed my room, amazingly.
Caysin stopped by for awhile as they were rly bored.
I've got gummys! - "yayyy me!" (claps)
I rly rly cant wait for Saturday,
sth i'm looking forward to.BBQ and swimminggg.
Probably tanning in th process too.
DOh wells, i promised caysin to slp at 9pm. So i shall go off soon! Like now.
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3:38 AM
Hai people, I'm finally here to do a proper update.
WHY AM I SO LAZY!?
i keep saying, 'I very stress! I really very stress!
But in the end i am still TOO LAZY to solve my stress problem!!
Damn! Next week will be the BLOODY MONTHLY TEST!!
I tell u! I'm not gonna to work hard! wakaka
But then.. haix..
This few days.. i was thinking the same thing all the time
which is MONEY PROBLEM!!! i NEED $$$$$!!!!
Pokai jor TT... that's all.. Gtg adi.. have to off pc..
cya in the next topic x)
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3:46 PM
Yoyo! Sorry for not updating.
Time constrain + no motivation = no post. Friday - swim .wed ?
errr ..... what's the programme that day ?
ahhh . studied . HAHAHA ! i'm serious . i did my maths okay ..
thur - gym at amk .bad luck day i guess .parents drove me and
my cousin to the club .gym-ed , bathed , NOT YET EATEN .called dad ,
dont want to come fetch us .not much money . no ezlink card . no make up .
worst .took bus . fucking attitude driver . never mind .took train at yck .ate .
played arcade .home . eat . arcade again . ( i am not those ah lians who are
addicted to arcades . thank you . its just the drum thingy and ddr which attracted me . )
today - morning jog .morning called them ( cousins ) . phew . i might end up running
alone if i dont call .rested a little. bathed . computer ~am going to mind cafe . :D
i want to slim down ! fk the fats !am broke now . no money ~ T_T
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3:44 AM
Felt like blogging, but staying home all day's boring.
Thought of asking her out,
she said few days back want to bring me to eat ice cream,
think it's Serene Centre? Well, i'm a homely kinda person,
tell me anywhere i can use go 'huh?' lacking self-confidence,
i need to find them back. Hate the fact that i'm only 16,
and i feel like i'm living a 20+ yr old lifestyle. Working full-time,
with weekends free, but getting a efff-ing low pay.
Thinking of getting a super part-time job, working part-time,
any time, or even no time. Love the fact when ppl tell me money
comes in even when you're sleeping.
Call me naive if you want, well some of you all may think so.
But let me ask you, which 16yr old girl, supports himself,
his meals, daily needs(eg. shampoo), absolutely everything,
and i even have a savings plan. Am starting to give my parents
money already, and my income is only $1000. I need at least extra $500,
that's why i'm willing to try part-time jobs but another this time round,
since it's introduced to me by my friend. No one can change the fact that
money's important, it's everything. Didi's birthday's coming soon,
hate the fact that i cant get anything, coz he has everything he wants:(
so i'll just get a card for him, and he's okay with it(:
Guys, let's go drinking next week? fri-sun, which day are you all available?
Then, next next week i'll go drinking with Di&co if you guys want to join, all are welcome(:
Oh, dont say i'm naive/tian zhen when you dont know me well yet okay,
no one in this world know me well enough to comment about me,
except my mother. She have this crazy power to know what i doing,
have to emphasize sth again, my past, some of you all have read about it
in my blog. I'm still quite unable to put down my mask, but if i'm comfortable
with anyone, i'll take down away half of it. Then slowly you'll know what kinda
person i am, but till then dont judge a book by it's cover, by what it's showing you.
It may be dull but it might have a interesting story behind it,
but although one may look gorgeous, the story might just be plain boring.
So anyone of you reading this, dont start to doubt anyone, if one's comfortable with another,
you'll see the other's real self one day. If you think you know me, i'm naive,
please think again coz it's been only 2months, i wont show you my real self,
if you really want to know the real me deep down inside, prove it show it to me,
if not you'll forever just see the casing, fair enough?
What comments i received, i'll just ignore coz it's just pure evidence that you dont know me well enough.
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7:23 AM
Geez, not a nice day. Things doesn't turned out as expected almost entirely.
Didn't wake up on time = late for class = started late on
canvas & Late release = couldn't make it to training.
And I had a bad headache + my disappointment for not making it to training = foul mood.
Sorry to those.. & Sorry Jasline. ]:
Went home after class. Managed to claim myself down by watching
Prince of Tennis. ^^ Heh, unresistable Echizen Ryoma, Eiji Kikumaru & Fuji Syusuke!!!!
Bet you're very lost. But, DON'T BE! Watch it. Highly recommended. [:
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9:38 AM
Had a super weird/special dream this morning. I dreamt that I
nearly got shot. (!!) But someone saved me. Lol, kind of drama.
Oh well.. it's just a dream.
Anyway, I going out soon. Had to go back to school to get my
worksheets that I forget fully left under my desk. ):
Maybe going for tuition later. Tomorrow is 31/5, so
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE, WILSON!
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE, WENKAI!
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7:40 AM
This week had been rather busy for me. Doing the same routine
throughout. Normally school hour > Asp > Home > Doing practices.
Just a mere 4 days and I can frankly say that I'm super tired already. But, what to do?
O LEVEL IS JUST IN AROUND 10 DAYS!!
I haven't mentioned my results right? Super terrible, feel free to mock at me.
Bio = fail
Chemistry = fail
Add math = fail
Others haven get yet
My cousin's coming to stayover tomorrow!! Will be out the
entire day, bringing her to church then shopping. Cheewah's birthday
is coming up soon too. [:Will try to update asap.
Sorry to those faithful daily reader..
Dedications:
Welcome this new section of my post! This is to show how
appreciative I am. HAHA, just kidding. [: Maybe if you're too cute(?)
for this stuff, you can skip it. But perhaps your name will appear here
someday? Who knows. HAH!
So, first one on the list is, my FAMILY! They had been good to me
throughout this week while I'm chionging my papers.
Good means, ABUNDANCE OF FOOD. [: And upon seeing that I'm
already half dead, mummy let me skip school today. LOL
Next, is Sexy & Caysin ! They had been keeping me HIGHLY
entertained in the extra class. (Skip the annoying part of course. LOL jk)
Then comes, Steven & Jason! For those mountains and mountains
of encouragements for this past few days. And it had been like this for YEARS.
Of course definitely not forgetting, Jiahui & Cel! For making a difference in every
recess time. [: (Not as in the food taste better. HAHA)
CHURCH BUDDY is the BEST!
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3:44 PM
You're my friend and that's true,
But the gift was given from me to you
We went throught moments that were good and bad,
Even moments that were happy and sad
You supported me when i was in tears,
We stuck together when we were in fear.
It's really sad that it bad to be this way.
but it has reached its very last day.
Miles away can't keep us apart
Cause you'll always be in my heart.
Thank you P-babe!
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3:37 PM
You didn't notice the silent tear that dropped,
You didn't realize the agony in my eyes,
You couldn't spot the lump in my throat,
You didn't feel the searing pain that went through my heart.
You couldn't recogize the constant ache after that,
You couldn't fathom my chaotic thoughts,
You didn't pay attention to my topsy-turvy world,
I didn't neab for this to happen,
When both of our world where shattered.
I wonder if you know,
That those memories still haunt me sometimes,
That i tried very hard to forget everything,
That Failed miserably at first!
That i got over it somehow,
That i want you to be happy always,
That i still cherish you and keep you close tomy heart,
That my love was true...
I wished that time would stand but it just brushed
past ne,
So i'll let go
forever.
I'll remenber you always!
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